Today

Today... I spoke up... and it rained... it felt so bad... and it felt so good...
and it rained...

It is one of those hard things that need to be told; she may never make it, and you're doing mistakes...

It was hard to say, and hard to hear my voice word out... Am I the devil in this picture? I was made to doubt this myself, but it needed to be told...

The good thing is that it rained...
Thank God it rained...

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A Letter Unsent

The truth is, I am never going to be good enough... and so I need to break free...
I need to get away,
It isn't going to be easy, but it might be better for all
For me to grow, for you to realise that I am not that little girl anymore,
I don't need you, I can manage without you, without your arrogance, without your ignorance,
without your teachings, ones filled with guesses, generalisations, hatred, and a little bit of racism...

Allow me to tell you sir, that you are the product of your messed up society... And I refuse to be so... and I will break free... Sooner or later... I will break free...

I cannot wait...

I Have To...

OK, so I am feeling a bit better now in comparison to how I felt when I posted my last piece. I however am a bit worried about my sanity, as I have been going on and off so frequently and so scarily for the last couple of weeks now. One hour I am on top of the world, the next I am thinking about ending my life; Yep, the idea has crossed my mind a couple of times, I have to say...

I took a quiz on Facebook today: "What mental disorder are you?"

My result? well, considering the details I have mentioned above, I don't think the answer is very hard to guess:

Multiple Personality Disorder... yep, that's me, guess it explains it all :)

It might have been set up for fun, but I guess it is some kind of a sign... I am not stable -at the moment- :)

But I guess I will be OK soon, I hope so, I would like to think so...
I have to be so...

Wandering Thoughts

Despite the fact that I haven't posted anything over here for a relatively long time, I came here today to post these ramblings of mine. At the moment, this seems like the safest place for me. Unlike my other blog, people I know are unfamiliar with this one; A strong reason for me to think of it as some kind of a diary, that I write for myself, yet tidy up in case someone decides to take a peek or two... So, here I go with how I feel at the moment:

I am confused... I am sick, inside and out... I am tired... and I consistently feel the need to cry, to let it all out... I have lost the will to stay on this Earth... I have ciezed the desire to find out about why things happen, it's easier to think that somethings will never be understood, somethings are better left not understood... I am disappointed in humanity, yet I keep telling myself that I still have faith in humanity. Words go through my mind like wandering ghosts. Voices are getting so loud. It's all in my head. My head is about to explode. I want to go home. Back to my real home.

I am ready to go... I am so ready to go...

Virtual Reality... Or Not...

I am so not going to start this post with explaining the reason behind my infrequent creativity; as I don't want it to turn into a cliche. I'm simply Tooooo BUSY.

So, Today I want to write about the greatness of the Internet. And no, I'm not going to talk about that fourth grade silliness of how the internet "yowaffer alwakt waljohd walmaal", which is unfortunately not exclusive to fourth graders in Jordan, it is something that you could hear about by T.V. presenters on the Jordanian channel (which I wont go into as it needs a whole post on it's own)...Anyways, where was I....Yeah OK, The greatness of the Internet.

I was thinking the other day about one of the greatest features the internet has. You actually get to block people who BUG you. How amazing is that!!!! This is one of the features that I wish real life has. Can you imagine blocking someone you can barely look at on days when you're not feeling your best, or maybe block your boss when their looking grumpy. That would be real sweet, wouldn't it !!!

But I guess life can't be this simple. If it was, then it wouldn't be exciting at all...

Great Analytical Thinking

Today I came across a week old newspaper reporting the discovery of a skeleton somewhere east of Azraq city.

The report says that the skeleton was wrapped up in a cloth/blanket... and that the skeleton was sent to forensics department to reveal the sex of the skeleton's owner, cause of death, and whether there is anything criminal concerning the death or not.

so we've got a body wrapped up in a piece of cloth and dumped somewhere around Azraq city... and we're still not sure about any criminal actions involved in the incident...

This, my friends, is what I call: great analytical thinking !!!!

Hmmmmmmm

euh well... I am sure those people are doing their jobs very well, but I couldn't help but share my sarcasm concerning the way the news was written.

Paranoia or Mere Stupidity?

Here is something that I came across while surfing the internet the other day... Something that I thought I would share with you...
This is what I call: FUNNY...hmmm... in a sad way :S
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“My wife was flying between 2 cities in the midwest this week and noticed that the arabic man next to her was texting the entire time of the flight.

It is my opinion that the guy was testing the limits of cell-phone texting capability during flight. Perhaps a dry-run for another coordinated attack. I urged her to call DHS and let them know what she saw.

Anybody else witness this kind of behavior?”
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You can also find people’s responses to this guy’s post over here:

http://www.freerepublic.com/focus/f-news/1887724/posts

And TRUST ME; some of them ARE worth reading...

P.S.: I can’t help but wonder if this guy is aware of the “games” option in his cellphone!!!

Enjoy Y’all :D